I try to be the best being I can be, I try to follow my heart and give 100% out of it. But my mom, has the best way of breaking me into pieces and making me feel like I’ll never be good enough with whatever I do. She reminds me that I need to be fortunate for her, and I am fortunate for her. I do whatever it takes to make sure I can make her life better, saving up my hard earn money for her to use incase of anything. I try to be selfless and not ask for too much or anything. I try to remind others they need to be grateful of their parents, because you won’t have them much longer.
She use to tell me she needed to love my sister more because she had a difficult birth, so I said I understood what it meant when I came last. I understood when sometimes I was just felt left out. I just don’t understand why I need to be going through this. Like why does it have to be so hard, or why does she need to make me feel like a burden.. especially when I’m sick or sad or when I made a mistake or when I’m tired.